Why so single???

"I LOVE YOU"
to say tht to someone i guess i should noe wat tht means..
the first word is where most of the problem lies..
"I"
i frankly still dont noe who i am(except the basics ofcourse)..let me find this I..nd let me find the YOU and then we'l get to the "love" later..



Its been 2 yrs in college nd now im know for a fact im graduating outta here single..
im sure more than anything else..HE is not here.. i wonder if it is wat i feel for this guy(THE ONE)that makes me think so wish so ...i hope ur not here..somewhere better..nd also coz i wont look for u here...no not here..but i do hope werever u r,u are happy,u are free..and im in your dreams ..i hope wereve u r,u still believe in love and goodness in people..u still hope..for a heaven with me..
sumday,somehow...ther will be a us..i hope in ways not describable im wid you..even though u r without me..

The truth is absolute…it is not relative to all the lies
The lies are relative to the truth

musings at midnight

tell me your story and I'll tell you mine..
tell me what you've left behind,what you miss,what your running away from and tell me what your running after...
tell me the truth behind the lies you tell the world,tell me the lies you tell yourself..show me the filth in your life...
show me your wounds and I'll show you mine,
show me your scars and I'll show you mine..
in the wounds,in the scars,in the blood,in the tears,
in the pain and hurt,in the anger and the hate,
in spite f all,in spite the damage,find me truly beautiful and then...call it Love.

the last day

its over...cant believe it is..it seems so unreal...almost like a dream
i wonder how something so meaningless can mean so much...
i got up in the morning to find everyone asleep..the thought in my head..God its over...God theres gonna be no time to breathe..

ya its official...ya its public..im crazy
but if a lil bit of craziness can keep me sane,can make me feel real and alive..yes im insane..
call me crazy..nd il take a bow.

mumbai

tanned and tattooed we arrive on a wet morning at mumbai...yes we're better..
a barefoot dash in th mumbai rain..for a coldrink i didnt even drink...yes ill remember the applause lol

yes we are cursed,but then if we are..we bloody hell might aswell take our beating with a fucking smile..
yes we are doomed..but in our doom..as we walk through the storms..
we feel,we live,we do it all together..
we learn to get alonginspite of all..
we look life in the eye and say we are alive..bring it on anytime...nd we'l stand and face it everytime..

alive

Baga Beach..feel so alive..see everything so clear...

I dont really like seeing myself in the mirror,but after a long while i saw myself not in th mirror bt in photographs im my camera...
i wonder when did the world make my smile so crooked.
wen did i become so cynical and sarcastic..
i see the sadness in the corner of my lips..
i see the arrogance in my jaw..
i see a girl who grew up too soon...nd nw wants t go back..but cant.

either i cant see anything or i see things crystal clear..
For me life is either awesomely beautiful or totally fucked up and the funny thing is both the things are right here so you cant miss anyone of them...that the reason why most of the times i end up laughing and crying at the same time.

DAMAGED

My favorite word nowadays..DAMAGED..synonym broken..
how did we get so damaged,
are we damaged beyond repair???
is there no way that someday,somehow we'll be the way we were..
we'll believe the way we used to believe..
smile and live the way we were meant to be.