Between Friends

AB:“I feel something’s missing. ”

ADG:“Aur kuchh?”(“something else??”)

AB:“Unloved.”

ADG:“Come on, is that even a word?”

AB:“I don’t know. I feel so different now. It’s like I’ve been to some theme park and now I don’t want to live in the real world”

ADG:“Okay. So you need to go back to your theme park or whatever, but please tell me you are going this time with someone else.”

AB:“Yes, I know. ..FYI the theme park makes me puke after most of rides, it is stupid and unreal..wastes my time and energy.. and is a lil expensive…yet I wonder why I want to go back…It’s not even fun you know??”
 
ADG:“Well you never got to the fun part.”

AB:“Can't you for once be serious???... And I will have “the fun”..when I want to…but yea I wonder if things would have been different if we had had “the fun”…I mean, I don’t know..”

ADG:“Baby, this is crazy. Sleeping with him wouldn’t have made him understand you better. It would have actually made things worse…for both of you.”

AB:“I know. It’s just sometimes in the middle of the night I just can’t figure out why we broke up..its like everything seemed to be so perfect.”

ADG:“Baby, in the middle of the night…everybody’s mind fucks up…we can’t reason, I don’t know may be coz our body runs out of food or something…or the hormones going crazy or something…it’ll pass.

You broke up because you weren’t meant to be. You weren’t in the same place in life.
He had a different point of view..a different way of seeing things, understanding things…yours was different…and yes you were both immature…he had his kid in him being stubborn…and you had this stubborn kid in you…and both the kids had a grand fight..
It’s always perfect in the beginning…what happens after and how people deal with it becomes the deciding factor on whether people stay together or not…
In your case my love,  the letters, the conversation, the actions after the big fight..clearly are convincing that you two are not meant to be…you should just let it go…”

AB:“Yea.. I know…there was this whole new person I got to see in him after I told him I wanted to get out of the relationship…that letter made me feel like I had been so deluded about who he was and what he felt for me…and the anger just exploded and made things worse…ahh forget it…I don’t even think I should think about it anymore…I’ve thought about it enough, I’ve hurt enough…I'm not going back to that place again. It’s just been a huge learning experience in my life.”

ADG:“That is the deal honey, we break our hearts and we learn something from it and move on…I wonder one thing though…You don’t love him…you clearly don’t want to get back with him..but then why can’t you talk to him?? Be friends may be??”

AB:“Yea I’ve thought about it…that may be it would be better if we could talk…find some closure…but I don’t think it would help. I know he’s mad at me because I am pretty sure he still doesn’t get why I broke up with him. I'm pretty sure he has no idea how guilty he made me feel when he just stopped talking to me after we broke up…when it didn’t have to be that way…he wasn’t a very good friend you see…left me when I needed him the most.

Actually, the truth is, he was never in for “being friends” deal..he wanted a relationship...from the beginning of it till the end…he never wanted to be just friends...and the moment I said no to the relationship thing, he said no to being friends…and I don’t know why that freaks me out…
I just don’t see the point of being friends with someone a)who is mad at me and b) who is friends with me only because he wants to be in a relationship with me.
Plus we don’t have a common friend group or something..its not like we’re spoiling fun for other people by not being good to each other..as fate has it…we are in a position that we can totally avoid each other and pretend nothing happened”

ADG:“Well I guess you are. Well then I guess it’s all cool then.”

AB:“Yeah..I’m almost 22 , I have almost no knowledge or skills, I have flunked the only exam I really cared about clearing and passed in all the other exams that don’t matter to me, my friends are separating from me, I don’t feel like going home…its funny, I almost feel like I went through a divorce…and the only thing I have gained is emotional baggage and some body weight in the last 4 months..yea.. I’m cool. “(half-smile)

ADG:“Divorce,my ass...save the melodrama..People break up all the time...It's life..“(half-smile)

AB:“I know. ”(full smile)

ADG:“Do you know my cousin’s  ******’s boyfriend doesn’t use a condom when they fuck??”

AB:“Shit, really?? Why on earth are they so stupid??”

ADG:“I have no idea. But she told me ….. …… “
(the remaining parts of the conversation are the really interesting parts ;)…but as it goes…the best things are never blogged or documented :P)